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From: [smallred]
Dear Hank,
I've managed to get both of us off-duty this Thursday night by dint of cajoling and bribery. I know it's been a bad week, but perhaps that makes it even more important that we do this now - if we can't manage to arrange our schedules enough to actually date, then this isn't going to be a very exciting... um, yes. That.
I'm sorry if I've been a bit gun shy since last week. A combination of things - not wanting to hurt Kurt more than I already have, being insanely busy setting up this consultancy with Fred and trying to get Jay to see the sense in talking to someone about what happened and trying to give the local PD a kick in the ass. Plus there was me trying to sort out some things.
I'm not exactly a sharing sort when it comes to certain feelings - this will have to change, I know, but at the moment? I'm actually sort of terrified. Scared I'll screw up somehow and lose not one friend but two. Worried that once you get to know me better, you'll realise maybe I'm not the person you wanted after all. I'm not going to let the fear rule me, but I just needed some time to stuff it in one of those metaphorical closets in the back of my mind, and hope it stays put for a while.
So, in a roundabout day, how about that date for Thursday night?
Maddie.
From: [smallred]
Dear Hank,
I've managed to get both of us off-duty this Thursday night by dint of cajoling and bribery. I know it's been a bad week, but perhaps that makes it even more important that we do this now - if we can't manage to arrange our schedules enough to actually date, then this isn't going to be a very exciting... um, yes. That.
I'm sorry if I've been a bit gun shy since last week. A combination of things - not wanting to hurt Kurt more than I already have, being insanely busy setting up this consultancy with Fred and trying to get Jay to see the sense in talking to someone about what happened and trying to give the local PD a kick in the ass. Plus there was me trying to sort out some things.
I'm not exactly a sharing sort when it comes to certain feelings - this will have to change, I know, but at the moment? I'm actually sort of terrified. Scared I'll screw up somehow and lose not one friend but two. Worried that once you get to know me better, you'll realise maybe I'm not the person you wanted after all. I'm not going to let the fear rule me, but I just needed some time to stuff it in one of those metaphorical closets in the back of my mind, and hope it stays put for a while.
So, in a roundabout day, how about that date for Thursday night?
Maddie.