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xp_communicationTo: [kit-kat]
From: [trouble]
Thanks for sticking up for me yesterday, Kit. I was ready to propose when I saw your reply to Catseye, I really was.
I've apologised for the tantrum, tho'. Doesn't mean I'm any less upset about a bunch of things, but there's a few reasons for me to try and calm things down. First up, Terry's right - I forgot Catseye has had to pretty much abandon everything she ever knew, and to keep at her just makes me the more insensitive person. The whole smug superior thing still pisses me right off, but I'm never going to win that one, not without making everyone in the place hate me. Second - it's not fair on the psis to keep stirring things up like this. It's easier to ignore one or two people simmering to themselves than a half-dozen yelling at each other online. And third... I don't have it in me to argue any more, really. I can't put the words I want to together, can't explain it, and it's not fair for you to have to do it for me.
Besides, only some of it's to do with the history stuff. A big part of it's me feeling stupid - I had my Arabic final yesterday before all that exploded, and I know I failed. Five questions out of fifty, even if I got them all right which I doubt, does not make a pass. And Arabic was my best class, at least until my life went to shite yet again. And I know I've been talking about how it doesn't matter, I'll make it all up next year, but reality's a lot harder than you think. So, finding out something I've always depended on, the magic and its history, wasn't actually what I thought it was? Hit hard. Languages are my _thing_, and I can't even do that any more. My own fault, but still, it hurts. And it meant I wasn't in the mood for people to pick at me, either, even if they weren't, actually. Or were they? I can't even tell any more.
All right, this is getting stupidly long, and you're probably too busy studying to read bloody epics. Just wanted to say thank you, for saying what you did - it was exactly what I wanted to say only I was too wound up to say it like that. And I'm glad someone _gets_ it.
Amanda.
From: [trouble]
Thanks for sticking up for me yesterday, Kit. I was ready to propose when I saw your reply to Catseye, I really was.
I've apologised for the tantrum, tho'. Doesn't mean I'm any less upset about a bunch of things, but there's a few reasons for me to try and calm things down. First up, Terry's right - I forgot Catseye has had to pretty much abandon everything she ever knew, and to keep at her just makes me the more insensitive person. The whole smug superior thing still pisses me right off, but I'm never going to win that one, not without making everyone in the place hate me. Second - it's not fair on the psis to keep stirring things up like this. It's easier to ignore one or two people simmering to themselves than a half-dozen yelling at each other online. And third... I don't have it in me to argue any more, really. I can't put the words I want to together, can't explain it, and it's not fair for you to have to do it for me.
Besides, only some of it's to do with the history stuff. A big part of it's me feeling stupid - I had my Arabic final yesterday before all that exploded, and I know I failed. Five questions out of fifty, even if I got them all right which I doubt, does not make a pass. And Arabic was my best class, at least until my life went to shite yet again. And I know I've been talking about how it doesn't matter, I'll make it all up next year, but reality's a lot harder than you think. So, finding out something I've always depended on, the magic and its history, wasn't actually what I thought it was? Hit hard. Languages are my _thing_, and I can't even do that any more. My own fault, but still, it hurts. And it meant I wasn't in the mood for people to pick at me, either, even if they weren't, actually. Or were they? I can't even tell any more.
All right, this is getting stupidly long, and you're probably too busy studying to read bloody epics. Just wanted to say thank you, for saying what you did - it was exactly what I wanted to say only I was too wound up to say it like that. And I'm glad someone _gets_ it.
Amanda.
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Date: 2005-05-26 10:24 pm (UTC)From: [the kitten]
No problem. They were cheesing me off, probably not as much as they were you, but enough. And yeah, for the psis' benefit I vacated the premises when Forge joined in. I totally get you about Catseye, though. I know she's had it rough, just like a lot of people here and not so much like me, but that doesn't mean I'm not gonna call her on it when she's wrong.
Sorry to hear about your Arabic final. I know you've accepted you're not gonna pass the year, but that doesn't make the individual failures easier.
I don't think they were meaning to pick on you, persay, but they weren't making it easy to see that, particularly if you were already in a bad spot to begin with, and when you said "hey, I get it, back off" and they didn't 's when I got cranky.
You're welcome, by the way. :)
-Kit