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xp_communication[To] Kevin Ford
[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Powers
To your inquiry about the powers. To put it simply, I can feel as much as I can manipulate concerning the emotions of others. Feel and see as a spectrum of colors, each emotion holding a very distinct color with varying hues. What complicates it is some emotions overlap in colors, weaving together and not everyone feels one emotion at one time. Feeling is easier than seeing.
-Manuel
[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Powers
To your inquiry about the powers. To put it simply, I can feel as much as I can manipulate concerning the emotions of others. Feel and see as a spectrum of colors, each emotion holding a very distinct color with varying hues. What complicates it is some emotions overlap in colors, weaving together and not everyone feels one emotion at one time. Feeling is easier than seeing.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:09 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
That's actually kind of interesting. And kind of scary if you ever go crazed maniac or anything. Did you get an off switch with that? Or maybe a volume knob so you can turn down everyone else's stuff so you don't have to feel it and see it all the time?
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:16 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
Music has helped in the past however there is a way to shield myself from it.
I am much like a sponge, except it comes out in me and I am subjected to what others feel, ignoring my own emotions in the meantime.
And what do you do? Are you a student?
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:21 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
People have too many emotions around here. Being forced to live their emotions just because you absorb them? Yeah, suddenly I don't hate my mutation as much.
I was a student, then I sort of accidentally exploded someone when they ran into me, I did time at Muir then came back in September. I work for Elpis now. I decompose organic material. And not just by the touch of my hand.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:28 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
Can you control it? That is a very tragic power, if you cannot. Tragic, but great in strength.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:34 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
No. I'm sort of working on it in a way, but there's no off switch. I learned that much at Muir. I'll never be able to touch someone without damaging them.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:40 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
Mind over body. At least we have something in common. I've not been able to control it since waking. I'd rather you'd keep this in the strictest of confidence. I was at Muir as well. Have our paths crossed?
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:49 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
I won't tell anyone. Especially since some people seem kind of pissed at you, not that Forge's opinion is one I actually pay attention to.
I don't know, maybe. People said you're awake, were you in a coma? If our paths have crossed it was probably only when you were unconscious.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:53 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
I'd be a fool to say I did not expect it. I did, but I also expected more. I woke up not too long ago. I blame that for my subdued reaction to angry posts.
I woke sometime in September. I could not give you the exact date without asking the nurses at Muir for it. The first two weeks was a blur.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 02:56 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
It's kind of funny the stuff people forgive and the stuff people decide has to be a grudge around here. It's practically schizophrenic in its logic, really.
I left there in September. Third week of the month I came back to the States, couldn't stand being their lab rat anymore. You must have woken right around when I left. I'd say after 'cause I never heard of anyone waking up but I could be wrong.
I'm assuming, what with the hate thing going on, you used to be an asshole. Just, you know, for posterity's sake or whatever I figure I should check...you still the asshole or whatever it is you used to be?
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 03:09 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
The lack of logic or knowledge (to be more accurate), astounds me. However, I do not know what people have heard, what they know to be the truth, what they believe a lie and what they are mixing of the three.
By a stroke of fate (which I have no interest in believing), we may have _just_ missed one another.
That depends on what you would consider an asshole. If making mistakes makes me an asshole and not human nor mutant, then it is by society's standards that yes, I am an asshole. Or _was_ however, I believe that if you are asking me to assess myself and the position I am in at the moment, I'm afraid I cannot be of any help as I'm still working out the finer details.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 03:22 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
What people "know" to be truth ain't always actually truth. I already know Forge likes to jump to conclusions, there's a reason I avoid most of them.
Yeah, maybe. But then, what, about five months after I landed here so you did so if it was fate then it had other plans that didn't involve avoidance, right?
You seem alright to me, at least electronically. They're all melodramatic and react too strongly to pretty much everything. For the record, I don't care what you've done to any of them. People mess up, they learn or they don't and they move on or they don't. If you're decent to me I've got no qualm with you. That "too emotional" thing that seems to come with mutation skipped me. Maybe it was organic and it decomposed and ended up dust when I manifested.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 03:39 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
While I could lead you to believe I was the perfect angel and everyone was wrong, I'm not inclined, nor willing to do that now. I was not kind, by any means and I would rather give you this opportunity to walk away now without any animosity on my part or hold any ill will towards you. I do not see my time at the mansion being easy, though I am trying to make it easier on _me_ by not falling into old habits that made them deem me a monster.
perhaps....
Perhaps you are the welcoming company needed.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 03:44 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
You underestimate how much I really don't care. I didn't say it was easy for me to be here either. I don't even want to be here. Court order says I need to stay here and do powers training because they arrested me for killing my father by accident when I manifested. I'd rather be far, far away from Xavier's, easy ain't something this place is for me. No one's an angel, God don't live here so neither do any angels.
From one former Muir inmate to another, you get a chance based on whoever and whatever you are now. Social I'm not, but I don't reckon you're going to be either for a while.
If you want the company I'm around when I'm not working. There's a metal shop off the garage, you can find me there any time I'm not asleep or at Elpis for the most part.
Don't let 'em get to you, though. People make mistakes, they're not angels either but I think they forget it sometimes.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 04:20 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
You plead your case well. There's no energy left to be social. Even as I come to writing you another email, I crave to go back to bed and sleep for a few more hours. Time slips by easier now, though when the inhibitor comes off, everything, including sleeping habits, will change. Tiring and frustrating, if not handled correctly.
I may pass by. If I don't, you can find me in one of the guest suites. I'm afraid my energy has run out. I'm going to bed. I may continue this in the morning with you.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-06 07:35 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
Those inhibitor things are dangerous, aren't they? I remember them bringing it up when I was arrested and in custody. They talked about putting one on me because it was the only way to protect people from me.
Maybe I'll come find you tomorrow, make sure the mob hasn't turned crazed and tried to lynch you or something. Like fried chicken?
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-06 10:45 pm (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
They have side effects and they are not pleasant. So mine will be coming off, though I dread it. Hopefully by May when it comes off completely, the mod will have settled and gotten use to the idea of having me around.
It seems to me, by today, they're still picking me off, bit by bit. It's aggrivating.
-Manuel.
P.S. Chicken sounds good. Make it later than dinner, around ten. I'll be sleeping most of the day.
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Date: 2008-04-06 11:01 pm (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
Yeah, well, age doesn't equal maturity, unfortunately. Hopefully someone will at least smack the mob around or something so they shut up, maybe bottle those excessive emotions a bit.
I'll be in the shop all day anyway so late is fine. I hope the sleep helps. You'd think you'd be rested from being in a coma, wouldn't you? Too bad it doesn't work that way.
-Kevin
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Date: 2008-04-07 12:46 am (UTC)[From]Manuel de la Rocha
Subject: Re: Powers
I have very little faith in the middle grounds of age. The young are impressionable and the old are more forgiving. It helps to have a telepath sit down with you and deciefer if you are lying or not. Should I say anything to either groups, my words are warped and it is _assumed_ that I am lying and _must_ have a hidden agenda.
You'd think that, but it appears I need more sleep than what is normal for someone my age. Months later and I still say to myself that it is a growth spur and possibly will pass. See you at ten.
-Manuel
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Date: 2008-04-07 12:56 am (UTC)[From] Kevin Ford
Subject: Re: Powers
That's idiotic. People need to back off and let people who don't know you or have any previous experience with you make a decision based on their own experience. I understand if they had a really bad experience with you and want to warn people or whatever, but you've been gone for how long now? People change. They grow. They aren't the same, probably not even if they've been unconscious the whole time.
-Kevin